Hope

Isn’t that one of the best words in the English language?  I echo the Psalmist when he says “Guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long.” Psalm 25:5.

So I was listening to music while working on Friday, and I often just shuffle everything on my phone.  It drives Sue nuts when I do that because of all the weird transitions between people like The Beatles, Michael Card, The Rolling Stones, Sara Groves, Pink Floyd, John Denver, Billy Joel, Carolyn Arends, Dwight Plett, etc.  Anyway, at one point MercyMe’s “I Can Only Imagine” came on and I closed my eyes to do some imagining.  Before I knew it, tears were streaming down my face and I was glad to be facing my screens in such a way that people walking by wouldn’t notice.

I can only imagine what it will be like
When I walk by your side
I can only imagine what my eyes will see
When your face is before me
I can only imagine

Surrounded by your glory
What will my heart feel
Will I dance for your Jesus
Or in awe of you be still
Will I stand in your presence
Or to my knees will I fall
Will I sing hallelujah
Will I be able to speak at all
I can only imagine
I can only imagine

Yeah, it completely caught me:  I was overwhelmed by joy.  What a hope!  (Well, ok, maybe not the dancing.  :-O)

I eventually managed to compose myself and continue working.  A few hours later Sue called.  The surgeon had called.  He wanted to offer me another liver resection (surgery).  Apparently the tumour board had decided it was at least worth another try.  Unfortunately he was in a hurry, so we have a number of questions outstanding (e.g. when, what the chance of success is, etc., etc.), but it seems there may be a little hope for a bit more time here after all.  And that after I’d so much begun looking forward to the next phase of my existence.  :-)

Aren’t roller-coasters fun?  And now from MercyMe to Billy Joel:  “From the high To the low to the end of the show For the rest of their lives.” :-)